Faster Faster

I get so mad at myself. Because as much as I want to lose weight and I want to return to a normal weight, where I feel comfortable in my skin, I'm still being selfish. I refuse to say no. I need to learn to say no, to others and myself and say it consistently, over and over again.

I want to run so badly. The weather is not great right now. We were told we would get 6 inches of snow, but it's just cold rain. It looks like I'm going to have to run on the treadmill, in the cold basement. I need to do something though.

I get married next month. :-)

New Year, New Times, New Point of View?

So, for a month before the new year I did the Quick Weight Loss diet. Joined the center, followed their sucky *diet* and did really well until I gained and they gave me crap excuses for it. You know, I've gained on diets before, and it has never devastated me as much as when I gained on this diet.

Never before had I stuck so firmly to a diet. I followed their little plan, ate only what and when I was suppose to and waited for my promised 3 pounds a week to just fall off. Naive? No, I didn't think so. You don't really eat anything that stays around for a while. But, when their plan isn't working and all they can tell you is "Well, it's too soon to change the plan" it tends to leave a person upset in more ways than one.

There is something I learned from this though. The most important thing I learned from this diet was that I could say no to foods. I said no to the company thanksgiving feast. I said no to the chocolate right by my desk from customers. I said no to anything appealing.

One of the blogs I read regularly on here, the girl posted her goals for 2009. So, I'm basically going to steal her list and take off what isn't relevant.Her list

So this is her list, revised to fit me. And perhaps, I'll even add some.

-Run a 5k (and have a personal record to beat)

-Get through the entire shred series.

-Do 1 pull up

-Run a 10k (and have a personal record to beat)

-Read 50 books 3 down that I can think of. I need to start that list.

-Lose weight! Get to a weight I'm happy with and feel good about myself. Learn to really eat healthy and love it

-Talk Joe into getting me a corgi. He promised!

-Call my grandmother once a week (I hate taking on the phone, but I know my Grandma likes it when I call)

-Eat vegetarian 2 nights per week

-Research and implement one new 'green living' technique each month

-Do one new special, nice, unexpected, or thoughtful thing for Joe each week

-Pay off a good chunk of our debt and save up money also.

-Budget our money better.

-Get married! (I'll let you know how that turns out in less than 2 months! :-) )

-Do something wedding related for other people and get paid. I can do invitations, programs, personalized aisle runners, thank you cards and probably whatever you need!

Climbing a Mountain

Where I live, we have a big rock called Stone Mountain. It extends up, but also outward for a LARGE number of miles. We live about an hour from it and there is an area where that same rock surfaces in a backyard down the street.

Anyways, so last Saturday I climbed the mountain. Basically it equals walking up 1.5 miles in rocky and steep terrain. It was a lot of fun and a good work out. Since then I have had 2 lbs of chocolate (hopefully an over exagerated number) and no exercise. I have cooked a number of very tasty recipes.

My favorite is my meaty hashbrown casserole. It is based off this tater tot casserole which does not sound the least bit appetizing to me so I made it to suit my tastes.

1 lb ground turkey
1 can cream of mushroom soup 99%ff. 10.5 oz.
1 onion chopped up.
2 cups cheese, divided
taco seasoning
6 cups hasbrowns.

Pre-heat oven to 350
Brown ground turkey and chopped onion.
Add the taco seasoning and cook as directed.
Meanwhile in a sprayed 9X13 pan, spread out 2 cups of hashbrowns in a thin layer.
Mix 1 cup of cheese, 2 cups of hashbrowns, the cream of mushroom soup and the meat mixture in a bowl.
Spread over the hashbrowns.
Sprinkle the other cup of cheese on top and top with the remaining hashbrowns.
Spray with pam to help brown.

Cook until bubbly and brown on top.

Totally delicious and not too pointy. I think it is 5 points for a sixth of the pan.

Crazy? I'm not crazy!

So the other night I had major anxiety that when it came time for my wedding I would be too fat and my dress wouldn't fit and that of course, is a huge disaster. :-(

But it's all the more reason to stay OP and to keep up with my exercise. It looks like I could possibly do 3 days of Shred in a row this coming up weekend, heck maybe even 4. But I've been doing it so late that I think it is harder than it needs to be. That and I don't like to eat dinner until after I shred because I don't want to puke from working out so hard. Ho, hum.

Anyways, as soon as my slacker fiance (love you hun!) gets my pictures of the meal I cooked off of his camera I can post. They were both a double thumbs up and I can't wait to have it again.

I have a new recipe I'm trying out Friday night called Tater tot casserole. But I'm using hashbrowns instead of tater tots which cuts the points in half. Pics and recipe of that to come also! :-)

The Shred Continues

We did another day of Shred! I get sore from working out but for some reason I'm not sore after and I wasn't sore at all after the second work out. But I definitely feel like my arms and legs ARE going to fall off while working out. So I dunno. However I've gone down a belt loop so I figured that is good.

Tomorrow I"m making a healthy meal for Joe and I and he is going to make our healthy dessert that I picked out.

Smoothies!

So today is void of working out because I have bible study tonight! Of course this weeks Bible Study included nothing from the bible, which was a big odd. However the study still has a good message and point and still helping me more and mroe become more radical in my witnessing. Which, really just means step out of your shell you loser shy girl!

Anyways, so tomorrow I will for sure do 30 Day Shred. Either by myself of with Jaz.

But tonight it's Tropical Joe's Smoothies for a yummy yummy smoothie. Love it and a great dinner. Filling and although a little pointy, it fills me up! And I don't want or need a dessert fix later.

So I'm a loser for not working out, but dinner will rock!

And tomorrow will be another wonderfully sore day! :-)

Day 2 of Sore Muscles

Today was the second day we did 30 Day Shred. We skipped a day between our first and second day but we did another day. So far this is the most consistent I've been with the Shred. Yeah... I know, pathetic.

However, I had delicious, delicious, deliciousness for my meals today. It started out with a yummy cherry, raspberry and yogurt smoothie. I had a Chex Mix Turtle bar for a morning snack. Lunch was this yummy noodle casserole with chicken and spinach (imagine me eating spinach!!) and a chocolate pudding. I had a WW chocolate chip cookie and a Fiber 1 bar for an afternoon snack. For dinner I had this yummy beef and noddle casserole SMOTHERED in cheese. Mmmm, mmmm good!

My muscles are sore, but it feels good. It's a feeling of accomplishment because I'm sticking to SOMETHING! I'm excited. For once I'm excited. Having so much exercise support makes ALL the difference.

Currently Watching: Till Death
Currently Feeling: Great!