New Year, New Times, New Point of View?

So, for a month before the new year I did the Quick Weight Loss diet. Joined the center, followed their sucky *diet* and did really well until I gained and they gave me crap excuses for it. You know, I've gained on diets before, and it has never devastated me as much as when I gained on this diet.

Never before had I stuck so firmly to a diet. I followed their little plan, ate only what and when I was suppose to and waited for my promised 3 pounds a week to just fall off. Naive? No, I didn't think so. You don't really eat anything that stays around for a while. But, when their plan isn't working and all they can tell you is "Well, it's too soon to change the plan" it tends to leave a person upset in more ways than one.

There is something I learned from this though. The most important thing I learned from this diet was that I could say no to foods. I said no to the company thanksgiving feast. I said no to the chocolate right by my desk from customers. I said no to anything appealing.

One of the blogs I read regularly on here, the girl posted her goals for 2009. So, I'm basically going to steal her list and take off what isn't relevant.Her list

So this is her list, revised to fit me. And perhaps, I'll even add some.

-Run a 5k (and have a personal record to beat)

-Get through the entire shred series.

-Do 1 pull up

-Run a 10k (and have a personal record to beat)

-Read 50 books 3 down that I can think of. I need to start that list.

-Lose weight! Get to a weight I'm happy with and feel good about myself. Learn to really eat healthy and love it

-Talk Joe into getting me a corgi. He promised!

-Call my grandmother once a week (I hate taking on the phone, but I know my Grandma likes it when I call)

-Eat vegetarian 2 nights per week

-Research and implement one new 'green living' technique each month

-Do one new special, nice, unexpected, or thoughtful thing for Joe each week

-Pay off a good chunk of our debt and save up money also.

-Budget our money better.

-Get married! (I'll let you know how that turns out in less than 2 months! :-) )

-Do something wedding related for other people and get paid. I can do invitations, programs, personalized aisle runners, thank you cards and probably whatever you need!

Crazy? I'm not crazy!

So the other night I had major anxiety that when it came time for my wedding I would be too fat and my dress wouldn't fit and that of course, is a huge disaster. :-(

But it's all the more reason to stay OP and to keep up with my exercise. It looks like I could possibly do 3 days of Shred in a row this coming up weekend, heck maybe even 4. But I've been doing it so late that I think it is harder than it needs to be. That and I don't like to eat dinner until after I shred because I don't want to puke from working out so hard. Ho, hum.

Anyways, as soon as my slacker fiance (love you hun!) gets my pictures of the meal I cooked off of his camera I can post. They were both a double thumbs up and I can't wait to have it again.

I have a new recipe I'm trying out Friday night called Tater tot casserole. But I'm using hashbrowns instead of tater tots which cuts the points in half. Pics and recipe of that to come also! :-)

An Introduction

It was two days ago that my fiance Joseph, and his brother Stephen went down to the basement to try out this new workout dvd they had called P90X. Stephen's wife, Jasmine, and I went down and watched them sweat and pant as they did pushup after pushup.

I've struggled for months on losing weight, but I've struggled many times before on previous weight loss struggles. It took me a while to realize that you HAVE to make not a change for a time being, but it must be a lifestyle change. You can not just endure for a while you must change for the better.

There are many things in my life which I need to work on, my temper, my organizational skills (or lack thereof), but mostly my relationship with my body. It's a very depressing thing to hate how you look, but some how that hate is always forgotten when given a treat, or when wanting a quarter pounder from McDonalds.

But, I'm slowly learning the joy of healthy foods. I'm slowly (very slowly) learning that with some good friends suffering with you, that exercise doesn't have to be evil.

And what I've learned the most in the past few days, is that not only am I not alone, but that reading other people's success and struggles with weight loss give me hope! So maybe I can help someone else out, if I can have some success.

So, I want to lose weight, get in better shape, be stronger, more confident, feel beautiful, get my life together, try and figure it out.